●Work 3 - Continuation
If I think about when I like to start learning a new thing, it varied and it could be when I feel a sense of my inferiority, when I need it, when I get interested in it. There are candidates who studying hard, there are athletes who having a tough training, there are people studying for some qualifications after working, and there are people who are not interested in any of those but mind what other people think about oneself. Why do we desire to learn something new?
There is no particular reason but I am addicted to the calligraphy recently. I suddenly feel like to write letters beautifully. It’s not for my work nor self-assertion. In fact, I am not good at writing letters, however, I have never minded it before as far as I can read them. I didn’t have any problem through primary school, junior high school, high school and university. The word processor was well familiarized and I knew that we have the script as in the culture in Japan but I was never interested in it. In those days, I don’t usually care about my hand writing but I always tried to write my name beautifully into visitor books. And I get angry if somebody says to me “bad hand-writing”. On the other day, a high school student who I know says to me that “your letters look like written by a primary school student” and I got angry and began to go to the calligraphy school which is the best in a village. I asked an instructor specially and took a lesson for primary school student and practicing among those primary school students. You should not underestimate them. They are really good at it. I would not like to be beaten by them so that I am working really hard at the school and at home. There are used papers for calligraphy all over in my house. It’s not only for cool stuff such as efforts or grits or it’s not a pose or purely for myself but merely for beautiful letters.
I was fighting with papers and ink everyday. One day my instructor suggested me of trying the calligraphy examination and I decided to aim for being an instructor. The motive may not be pure but I only care for improving calligraphy. I have been rolling up those used papers since I have started the calligraphy.
I sometime think, we are creature that always making changes and it is the result of life, continuation of days, it may not be clearly seen in a dairy life and it may not leave a mark for it. There is nobody who has never received any influences or given influences to anybody since they were born. You had days for your purpose or for nothing, all days are for you to create yourself.
I don’t look different but I have some changes in my heart since starting to learn calligraphy. I’m getting better and better. I made my work on the process of those changes.
This work is the accumulation of practicing papers since beginning. The purpose is not to achieve the point at the last stage but to express “hours” around me who is changing by continuing one thing. As you continue more, the whirl of paper become larger. It’s my work. I feel boring if I create and completed something in a short time. I create something in my life. That’s why I am now still practicing.